Pain Subsiding

Yesterday I said that the pain in my shoulder was starting to go away.  I've been using my gym on the patio about once or twice a day, not for very long, I do 1 rear shoulder exercise for about 20 reps then quit.  I don't know if it's helping but my pain is subsiding.  It still hurts a little bit but I'm sure over time it will be gone.

I rode my bike to the store today and I was still having pain though.  I'm pushing on the handlebars too much even though I'm sitting straight up so that could be problematic.  I wouldn't recommend going out on my rides until the pain is completely gone because I don't want to aggravate it and make it come back full force.

I have a feeling my handlebars are too long and that I'm going to have to cut them about the length of the grips then just replace the grips with new ones.  Or maybe I can get the ones that are on there wet so I can save them.  I put them on with hairspray so they are pretty much stuck to the bar.

I might also have to just go to Target and buy another new seat, when I bought the gel seat cover for my seat I saw that they had a beach cruiser seat so maybe I will buy that to see if that will help.  It was cheap so it's not like I'm spending another $70 on a seat.  It would be a damn shame to lose the $70 from the "ergo" seat by not using it anymore.  Oh well, lesson learned.

Oh I just wanted to add one more thing.  My last bike ride was 7/20/09 and today is 8/19/09 so tomorrow will be exactly 1 month that I haven't ridden so I need to get back on the bike before ALL the weight comes back.

Getting Better

At first I was apprehensive about posting this because if you say you think you are getting better then you are basically jinxing yourself and it comes back at full speed ahead.  But I just have a feeling that my shoulder is starting to get better.  It's not better but it feels like it is getting better.

I've been using a cold pack until my rear left shoulder was totally numb then I would immediately put the heat pack on it and it would melt my muscle and the heat felt so good.  I would just do this all day long, giving my back a rest for an hour or so here and there.

I've been noticing that the pain has been going down my arm a bit more and more everyday.  At first it was at my shoulder but then creeping down my arm, it would go into my bicep muscle then it was going down to my elbow in my muscles and now it's getting lower, I don't know what it's called between the elbow and the hands but it's in there now in the middle.

Maybe, hopefully it will just keep going down until it's at the tips of my fingers until they just leave out my fingers.  Maybe I might see sparklers and confetti shoot out of my finger tips letting me know it's over.

For now I want and see.  By the time my references come I will be fine again and back on my bike again lol.  Well let's hope that I will be back to my routine again soon.

Boogers

What's up with boogers?  Why do we have them?  Stop laughing, I'm being serious lol ok I tried saying that with a straight face.

Why am I talking about boogers?  I have sleep apnea and I sleep with a mask that blows air in my lungs via my nose all night long to keep me alive long enough to live another day.  So when I wake up I immediately have to blow my nose because that air dries my "mucus"  which forms boogers lol.

So I was just curious as to know what it is and why we have them.

This comes from Squidoo.com:

What are Boogers and Where Do They Come From?

Why do we get boogers?

In order to understand about boogers, you have to know about mucus. Mucus is that slimy stuff that oozes from your nose when you have a cold. You might know it better by the more common name, snot.

Mucus has a very important part in our bodies. In the respiratory system (your nose, throat, and lungs), it keeps nasty things like dust and germs out of your lungs. These things get stuck in snot and your lungs are kept safe.

When these things get in the nose, they get trapped in the mucus, and then they dry and clump together to form boogers!

So even though they are annoying and gross, apparently they are very important.  So in order for me to protect my lungs, I gotta support the tissue industry.

Ghostly Dreams

I've been watching all these ghost videos on YouTube that it has entered my dreams lol.

The one thing that I've learned from watching Ghost Hunters on the SyFy (formerly Sci-Fi) channel is that they can't hurt you.  Well, they kinda can because Jayson has gotten scratches and they show people with scratches on their back that they couldn't have possibly done to themselves.  And there was that one Halloween episode where Grant was being held back and you could see the collar of his jacket being tugged on.  But is that really hurting?

The videos on YouTube that I've been watching have been that stupid "Pantry Ghost" video where you can see hands and a face through the glass but someone has proven that it is a fake by showing you how they do it.  So I don't believe in that one.  This same person has also shot video of himself playing hide n' seek with his daughter and at the very end you see what appears to be a ghostly apparition in the corner by the dresser.  Well, that could've easily been faked using the same techniques as the pantry video.  They also made a video of going into a room and seeing a ghost girl standing up and then another where he opens the board to the attic and he sees a ghost girl turning around to see the camera.  Those are all fake because you cannot see through the ghost, it's a solid apparition.

I've actually had encounters with "ghosts" in my bedroom.  Feeling a cat jump up on the bed and walk around.  That happens sometimes but I've accepted that it's a kitty cat ghost, it can't hurt me so it doesn't frighten me in the least.  And one night, this only happened once, I was laying in bed and I felt what seemed like 4 cats on the bed but then I felt as though someone just sat down on the edge of the bed.  The edge of the bed felt like it was pressed down.  You could feel someone sitting.  I didn't move because I didn't want to scare it, it didn't scare me.  I even said hello to it.  I eventually fell asleep.

But last night I had this dream that there was this ghost in the house and it was stalking me.  I went to the front door and there was a piece of furniture sitting in front of the door and it was keeping me in the house.  But I can't put any stock into that dream because some how our toy chihuahua dog "Flower" duplicated so I had 2 "flowers" lol.

It still scared me, I was frightened and basically just scared out of my mind.  But I know that it was just a dream, they can't hurt me.  I have to just keep saying and thinking that they cannot hurt me.

I saw "ghosts" as a kid, so did my older sister, my mother told me that she sees them too and that if I feel scared then perhaps it's not good, it's "evil" and to say the "lords prayer".  Well, personally I don't believe in evil as in hell or the devil.  I do believe in evil as in people who are evil such as those who have murdered other people and laughed about it and don't regret it or apologize for it.  So I guess if a ghost can be good as people can be good then a ghost can be evil as people can be evil.  It works both ways.

I think the only way to stop those dreams is to stop watching YouTube ghost videos that try to scare you lol.

Home Gym

I've said before that I'm going to do it but then I wuss out because of my shoulder pain but I really need to do it for my shoulder pain.  I need to bring my Weider Total Body Works 5000 home gym into the patio from the back yard and start using it.

I think that if I work that muscle, the shoulder muscle that hurts and my back muscles, that I might be able to strengthen it up.

I've had this shoulder pain for almost a month now and it seems like it's moving from my shoulder to my neck and also down my left arm as well as being in my shoulder.  So I think that the only way I'm going to fix this is by exercising those muscles.

When I was going to the Chiropractors office in 2005 they would give me a massage, I would lay on a hot water bed with jets shooting at my back, they would put these electric things on my back that would shoot electricity into the muscle then the doctor would adjust my back and then they would send me over to their gym room where I would use the weight machine and do the exercises that they told me to do.  I still have the paper with all the exercises too.

They had me pull on the weight cable then hold for about 5 or 10 seconds or whatever, I forgot.  Then I would do it again, so about maybe 10 times for 5-10 seconds.  So I believe that this worked so I think I should do the same.

I'm giving myself shiatsu massages, vibrating massages, putting cold then heat on my shoulder.  I can't adjust myself but I do try to crack my back when I can.  I don't have a little twin sized water bed with heat and jets and I don't have one of those things that you put on your muscle then push the button to electronically stimulate the muscles by zapping it (as seen on Jackass the movie where they put it on their balls lol) but I do have a home gym and it's about time I use it.

I really want this pain to go away.  It's been almost a month and I haven't been on my bike in that amount of time.  I'm told to just go to the Chiropractors office but how am I going to get there?  Bus then have to walk the rest of the way?  Every step I take causes pain in my shoulder.  In 2005 I was going 3 days a week, that's $3 a week in bus fair that I just can't spare.  I would ride my bicycle but then I'd be paranoid that it's going to get stolen the whole time cause you are in there for 2-3 hours at least.

So my best alternative is to just suffer and use the options I have available to me I guess.  Maybe if I had a person to drive me then it would be easier but I don't.  We have a perfectly good SUV in the driveway that I could get there with but... don't know how to drive and even if I did, it's gonna cost me a lot more than $3 a week in gas.

Men Soliciting Sex in Parks in Bakersfield

Undercover investigation: Men soliciting sex in parks

That is an article in the BakersfieldNow website.  In the 1970's and 80's this was apparently a very typical thing, men going to the park and sitting in the cars and/or going to the bathroom and exposing themselves hoping to have sex with someone either in the bathroom, their car or going somewhere else.

I go on the bike trail and I pass 3 parks (as seen in my BikeCam videos) and I see children playing sports, people exercising and children on bikes, they don't need to see this.  What is wrong with people?  These children use those bathrooms and that's the last thing kids need is to go to the bathroom at Yokuts and Beach park and see 2 men having sex.

What really pisses me off is that these people are adding to the laundry list of why straight people hate gay people.  It's not just gay people, it's straight people who are doing it but that doesn't get put in the newspaper or on the news, they focus more on the gay people doing this.  If people want to find other people to have sex why can't they do what normal people do, go to a bar and end up going home with someone.  Do whatever you gotta do but don't go to the park and do something gross like having sex in cars and in the bathroom.

I have actually seen men and women making out in cars at 2 parks, 1 of them is by a Catholic school too which is in a neighborhood.  Plus I've seen straight people making out at the parking lot across the street from AAA on Truxton Ave.  I see these people doing this and all I can think is that they aren't married, they are probably cheating on their spouses because trust me, if you are as old as these people are and you are having to make out with someone in your car, you aren't married to them, you are cheating and most likely because your husband or wife don't have sex with you anymore so you are sneaking around.

I have seen straight people doing this several times but I have yet to see any gay people in cars.  I don't ever use the bathroom unless I am so desperate to go to the bathroom.  I'm a bit of a germaphobe so I would prefer not to sit on public toilet seats.  Peeing is one thing but if I see someone standing at a urinal I will use the stall to pee.  I don't use park bathroom stalls because they don't have doors.  So you won't see me in the park bathrooms unless I REALLY needed to go lol.