Weight Loss Frustration

First let me say that I'm keeping my cool about it and not letting it stress me out that much.  Stress is a leading cause of weight gain because ... cortisol... whatever.  Anyway, I'm just getting frustrated lol.

At first I was always right on that little red line on the weight chart and losing the weight so fast.  I mean, I've lost 24lbs.  Well, last year in November 2008 I was riding the bike and I was 244lbs and then I got down to 227 and had the accident then had to stop but then I gained 10lbs and was up to 237.  So when I started exercising in April I started losing weight again.  So you are damned right I'm counting the 244lb starting weight even though I'm only counting the 237lb starting weight with SparkPeople because that is how much I weighed in April when I started riding my bike again.

Anyway, what is the most frustrating is Chip.  I thought that he would come home from work and I'd make him something to eat or he might make it himself or something but then he started bringing taco bell or burger king home with him for our dinner.  Instead of just coming home and letting me make him something he brings fast food home for the both of us.

I know what you are going to say, take responsibility for your actions and refuse to eat that BS food and just go eat your salad and shut the hell up.  Right?  You are absolutely right.  I have on excuse.

Well, I've added 3 miles to my bike route everyday.  I've also added the amount of days I'm riding.  Instead of riding 2 days then taking a day or 2 off I'm riding 3 days then taking 1 day off then ride 3 days then take 1 day off.  Some weeks like this week I will have 2 days off in 1 week but then there might be some weeks that I might have 1 day off because riding 3 days then 1 off then 3 days that's 7 days total.  And then to top it off with the extra 3 miles makes it even better.

So all I have to say is that with all the cardio I'm doing with my 19 miles a day total and the slim fast for lunch and the bowl of Raisin Bran for breakfast and I will try to say no to fast food and restaurant dining and just eat a salad for dinner.  Then I will be able to lose the weight again.

This isn't a marathon, I mean, it takes a long time to lose weight and I don't want to rush it.  At the same time I do lol.  I just want to be skinny by Thanksgiving you know?  I want to walk in the front door of Chips brothers house and have everyone go wow omg you are so skinny.  My goal right now is to be at 150lbs by February 2010 so if by Thanksgiving I'm 170 then that's fine, I'll still be skinnier than I am now.  And I keep adding more miles to my bike ride every few weeks, I'm sure by Thanksgiving I will be riding 30 miles per day 7 days a week never taking a day off to rest and the weight will be melting off lol.